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RACHAEL MEADORS: "I don't actually work here”

May 23, 2020 at 12:00 PM


Day 69

"I don't actually work here” …is something I've said a lot lately. Usually after Krista asks me to get the ice for the line or tells me to start end of shift. For years I've joked that I'm a kitchen assistant, but I'm not. Or, I wasn't.

Rewind to 6 weeks ago. We found out we could remain here. The caveat: stay, but you must be flexible, innovative, and trusting of leadership. I am a Taurus; I am stubborn, I question leadership, and I lose my creativity when I'm in crisis. I stayed because this is my home. I knew though that I was not the person this Village wanted or needed. I was not the staff member described in that letter.

But here's what I missed: the Village doesn't need a different type of staff for this situation, it needs the ones already here. You are what we want and need.

Thank you all for showing me what flexibility looks like in your own ways. Ian for Floo trivia, Marta for long walks when we'd rather sit, Becca for virtual poetry dates, Marc and Marissa for welcoming me to your teams, Kate for songs and gardens, Mountain Jonah for honesty and care, the families for living your truth, and to Greg and Melinda for flexing your living situation and stretching your lives to make room for me. I am better because I learn from all of you. And I am grateful. Thank you.

Peace friends,

Rachael Meadors is Education & Program Associate and Garbologist at Holden Village. This column was originally published on May 23, 2020 in a daily newsletter, "The Quarantine Quarter," which is compiled by various staff members and sent to all Villagers.